hmmmm.... I have also found out recently that I am a star being and I have felt I didn't belong here etc. but you are a human also and don't poo-poo it. At another time and place you volunteered to be here now. as soon as you find your purpose it becomes easier. so enjoy yourself and don't take this whole thing too seriously.

You mean the way the people are going I think. The earth just goes round and round through space. For a long while there were no plants or animals. Many times almost all life was destroyed. Almost all, but not all of the living things were destroyed. I like the line from the song "We'll Make Great Pets" (by Porno For Pyros)

My friend says
we're like the dinosaurs
Only we are doing ourselves in
Much faster than they
Ever did

Because of our great numbers and our overwhelming efficiency and greater intelligence, we are able to destroy ourselves in a magnificent way. We also have it in our power to rein in our destructive nature and create a sustainable environment. The way we are living now is a very huge and fragile network of outrageous over consumption. It won't last forever, and that you can bet on. It really is sad, but if you look back in history, you will notice a lot of doomsday predictions from worse times that make the troubles of our age look like a circus.

Consider the ice ages, the plague, or even the War to End All Wars (World War I). I think of things in cycles, since I am connected to some things that most people are not aware of. Many people think in terms of individual events and straight lines. It is a two dimensional way of dealing with reality. It will always fail to provide a perspective which helps a person understand and accept the way things are. If you look at things in cycles, then you know we are at the beginning of an age only dreamed of in days past. Just look at what you are reading. Heck, just a few years ago I would have had to bang this out on a typewriter, get it past a publisher, and have it printed to have more than a few people look at it. So much information is available today!

I will tell you something else I know. I was far away in space and it was cold and dark. It looked pretty good down here from out there. I know I am not the only one. There are millions of us here from other places. So ask the angels if you want, or tune into the earth, or just ask your starseed kin. Nobody promises you a life that works. You must request one and you will get it. Some assembly will be required of course.

My life fell apart when I decided to start telling everyone I was a Melchizedek. I think it was a good thing that my life unraveled. I was stuck in a rut anyhow. Now at least I can be myself. I lost a wife, a job, and some things. I gained connections to many starseeds. I got my soul. So be it.